I know that God has good plans for me. I know the dreams and passions he's given me, he has given me for a purpose. But sometimes I'm not sure what those purposes are.

When I was 20, I figured I'd have more of life figured out by 30. I thought I'd be married, have a couple kiddos in my backseat, have a cute little house, with flowering trees and maybe a dog (just kidding I've never wanted a pet). I thought I'd be part time stay at home mom, part time social worker or counsellor. I was sure I'd have a man of God beside me, walking with me, leading our family.

But 30 came and went and there's no ring on my finger, I don't actually have a car anymore (I sold it to pay off my student debt before the World Race), I suck at keeping plants alive, and I'm not sure where my head is going to lay come July.

Sometimes (read: a lot of the time) there are parts of our journey we don't understand. There are times that are confusing, painful, and hard. But there are also parts that are lovely, beautiful, life giving and rich.

Thankfully at this point in my journey I can look back on times I was confused and see with clarity what God was doing. I can also look back on seasons of growth, pain, loneliness, and joy and also see what God was doing. Although right now I can't see what He's doing, I know I need to keep seeking Him. I know I need to be faithful in what He has called me to. I know I can trust Him. We have a history together.

Yes, when I was 20 I figured my 32 year old life would look different. But you know what? I wouldn't want the life my 20 year old self envisioned. Yes, I still desire to be a wife, a mom, and to work to support people. But my experiences have been so rich...I wouldn't change the journey.

As we have done retreats, now in 3 countries, I see common threads of experience in our lives. Our stories don't always turn out how we expect...most of the time there have been hard and difficult seasons we weren't expecting. We all have them. I have learned that it is often through these seasons that we see the Lord work, that we experience healing and redemption.

As I keep walking into what the Lord has for me and as I continue to encourage women to walk into what the Lord has for them, will you join me?

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